It's my hope that that is what I've been doing instead of blogging since March. My maternity leave ended in February, and since then I've been a full time working mommy. All my spare time goes to my loves, and after that I'm too tired to blink, so I fall asleep.
As parents, I think we complain about our children to be silly or blow off steam. But tonight I just feel lucky. I feel so lucky to do the hard stuff with my kids. Because I'm so lucky to be their mom.
Tonight Kingston and Kyrie have already called out for me from their bedrooms twice since bedtime. "MOMMY! MOMMY! MOMMY! MOMMY!" until I come. And I always do. Because I'm weak, and I love them, and I actually love our nighttime conversations.
So I put them on the potty again and tuck them in again and sing to them for the one millionth time. And I smile as I walk out the door.
And Ezra would not go to sleep tonight. I don't know why. Teething? Runny nose? Missed mommy? He usually just rolls right to his tummy when I put him in his crib, snuggles his hands under his tummy, and slips off to sleep. But tonight he cried. So I rubbed his back, and gave him his paci back, and shushed and shushed.
And he cried, and he cried.
So obviously he needed me. So I rocked him and kissed him and rubbed his sweet head until he fell asleep. I never ever get to do that anymore. Never ever. And it made me want to do it every single night for the rest of my life.
These are the annoying things. The exhausting things. The things that tire us out and make us long for a hot bath. But these days these things just aren't bugging me. Maybe it's because I work all day. Maybe it's because my kids are cool. But I'm happy to just be in my little slice of life with my boys.
2 comments:
Love this MacKenzie! You do such a great job at putting life in perspective and cherishing your moments with your boys. :)
I needed to hear this today as I prepare to go back to work later this week. Thank you.
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