Court Closure

Today was the last day the courts were open in Ethiopia until after the rainy season.  We were hoping, hoping, hoping to have a court date by now, but it didn't happen.

But its okay.  I have faith in God's timing.  I know our boys will be in our arms at exactly the moment they are supposed to be.

And many of you have seen their pictures, but many of you have not.  So let me tell you something.  My boys are the most beautiful boys there are.  I look at them every day.  I dream about holding them.  Seriously.  I do.  I dream about people asking to hold my boys and I tell them no.  I dream about carrying them in slings.  Which is probably because I researched the pants off those things.  And then I wake up SO happy and excited.  Its like Christmas when you're little, only BIGGER.  Like you can feel the excitement growing in your tummy, and its so overwhelming you have to distract yourself before you lose it.

I imagine what I will do when they are both crying and I'm the only one home.  Or when its 2:00 am and I'm so tired I'm crying along with the babies.  I can't WAIT for that.  I imagine kissing their sweet faces and counting their fingers and toes.  I think about walking around the neighborhood in the AMAZING stroller I picked out.

Its in our garage.

And it calls to me.  Begging me to put it together.

But I restrain.  Mostly because I might actually push it around the neighborhood before the boys are home.

And that would be weird.

I wonder how big they'll be in my arms.  I wonder what their first words will be.  I wonder if I'll really need two of everything.

I really WANT two of everything.  But my logical husband has been trying to talk me out of a second this or that.  But what if I NEED it?  What if the boys need it?  They might both want to swing at the same time, or bounce in a seat, or sit in a bumbo at the same time.  I need to be prepared for these moments. How am I every supposed to shower if I can't get them both strapped into a "something" with a mobile over their head while I peek out of the shower every couple minutes?

So I'm keeping myself busy while I wait for a court date.  Thinking about all this stuff and so much  more.  And enjoying my last nights of sleeping when I want to, and waking up late.  My last days of skipping meals or grabbing a yogurt on my way out the door.  My last days of having cute little diapers in the house, but not actually having to use them.

I can't wait.  I really can't.  But I'm hanging in there.  Keeping my mind going with lists of things I have to do before two little twin babies are going to live here and take over my heart and my world.

And I'll let you know as soon as well know our court date.  But in the meantime… pray for it to happen as soon as absolutely possible!   Thanks in advance :)